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The Spiritual

"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


"A donkey with a load of holy books is still a donkey"
Sufi Proverb


"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation"
J.Krishnamurthi


"From the first, nothing is"
Buddha


"Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the world earth revolves - slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future; Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life"
Thich Nhat Hahn


The GMR Series

IV: Creation of Ego, "I", and Onset of Mental Illustrions

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We had discussed in the earlier chapters how the desires get created and are further fuelled by the thought process. The mechanical process of the mind keeps on suggesting that if its desires are met, or if it has been fed with what it yearns for, it could become happy. We have to understand that the desires can never be fulfilled. The desires are generated from the thoughts and past memories and are thus self-propagating. They are a result of the thought process, which is perpetual; as long as the thoughts are there, desires will be there. Our mind may lure us into developing more desires in order to keep itself occupied. It creates an illusion in which we make ourselves believe that if the given desires are fulfilled, we will become happy. Since the desires are superficial, they draw a person only towards fulfillment of materialistic means. The result, obviously, is sorrow.

In the material sense, the desires seem to get fulfilled when the things we want easily come our way. This is, however, nothing but manifestation of the illusion to such an extent that the achievements and gains appear to be real. In reality, we are only trying to satisfy an entity that has no physical domain. it is just like going from one dream to another. The mortality of this process is in the concept itself. We can see that although most of our desires seem to be fulfilling at times, they do not provide any real happiness or bliss. Once we have got one thing, the mind creates a craving for the other. It is like pouring water in to a vessel that has no bottom

The Mind Trap

The mind mechanism does understand that it is caught in its own web of thoughts. It is, however, not able to understand how to come out of it; or stop the process of pointless thinking. More often, we just want to shake the troubling thoughts away and have a peace of mind. The mind mechanism also understands that these habits and stimulations are harmful for its existence, but it does not know how to get rid of them. The irony is that it knows only how to start these events but not stop them. Not knowing how to come out of this trap, it gets engaged in debates, arguments and races from one conclusion to another with the aid and exhilaration of so-called willpower, arguments and logic. The mind gets satisfied by “thinking” or conjuring, that enough is being done towards fulfillment of life. However, it just thrives on the information. If someone is convinced about a particular theory or idea, they start believing that they “know” something. The mind convinces us that this information that we see as knowledge, is enough. However, when confronted with the realities of life, the mind comes short of providing any answers. The search for truth and happiness is always on, for the mind never knows the answers to these queries.

That is how the thinking process always makes the thinker, or person, antagonized and contentious. The thinking process is like a moving car without the breaks, which only accelerates and changes the course but does not stop. Whoever is caught in the mind trap is always sorrowful and dejected. Swami Samartha Ramdas says, "The more we yearn for happiness in worldly thing, faster we are drawn into the web of sorrow". When we are trapped in such mental desires, we ultimately end up in regret. And this regretful state is only due to memory bound mental recycling of thoughts. As we have described in the first chapter, all these activities lead to the creation of a pseudo image of "I" or ego in a person.

The human life works in mysterious ways. There are layers of unexplored memories and snapshots of our life on this planet in the mind. We may not be able to recall our past lives but the memories are there; buried deep in the stratums of the brain. Along with the memories come the vibrations and sensations. One coincident in the present life, like witnessing an event similar to any of the past lives, triggers a wave of unknown sensations. We cannot comprehend the contrivances of the event, but once it happens, secluded vibrations start sending signals and the mind catches them fast.

There are numerous unfulfilled desires, dreams, ambitions and emotions in the memory. Some of the experiences of today are simply retractions of the memories of the past. Dying is nothing but transformation of the Natural energy from one form to another. The whole universe is perfect the way it is. Nothing goes away from it and nothing is gained. The balance is always maintained to perfection. When we die, we go nowhere and when we are born, we come from nowhere. It is all here, at this very moment. It is one, potent energy changing shapes. Nothing is lost and nothing is gained. Without the thoughts and mind, this transformation would have been divine and enlightening for us. However, just as Nature carries forward some aspect of our lives to a new life, the mind enters into the equation. We continue to carry the baggage of our egos with us in each new life, whenever and whatever it may be – if at all.

Memories and Retraction

Before we understand the retraction procedure, we must look into the characteristics of the so-called "I". The creation of "I" in the mind is just an illusion. "I" does not exist and it is not real. It is not the body, as usually believed, but floats in the brain as a figment of our imagination. It has chemical and electro-magnetic properties due to the chemical and electro-magnetic activities of the brain.

When we say that we want to know something or experience something, it is actually the ego that is speaking. Who wants to recall the experiences? Who wants to fulfill the desires? Somewhere in the past, the mind had dreamt, wished or experienced something.

The same memories are coming back as new desires. It is "I" that wants to have these experiences and not the body. The basis for support of this illusory "I" are the memories. There is nobody in the body to actually experience or take pleasure in anything. "I" can only bring forth a memory of fulfillment and the memory cannot satiate itself through an illusion. Therefore, it keeps on recalling the desires and experiences. The experiences stored in the memory are nothing but a collection of the same. It would be frivolous to observe that the mind is creating an illusion in the present life, by recalling the earlier one.

Who is remembering? Who is recalling the experiences? The mechanical thinking process of the mind is actually remembering these events. One may wonder what the memories want. Well, they want repetition of past occurrences. These occurrences were, however, only memories. Therefore, the recall process is actually a retraction of memories from the past. The memory exists on the words. To sum it up, we can say that the imaginary “I”, (which has been created by memories), creates an imagination of happiness and for the happiness of the imaginary happiness; keeps on imagining and finally ends in sorrow. The experiences we have mentioned so many times, are nothing but memories of certain words that our mind wants repeated.

We can see that the memories are the basis of every fact discussed here. It may sound a bit boring to read and difficult to understand (due to resistance of the mind). But repeated reading and understanding it, will ultimately prove beneficial. The memory mechanism in the mind is much more powerful than we can ever imagine. Setting the memories to a target could be a very violent and stressful activity. Sometimes, it is deliberate and sometimes it is due to unleashed thoughts. Past memories leave strong influence on some people’s lives. We often use the term "burning emotions" but rarely realize how true they are. Movement of memories can be so gripping and intense, that in order to gain a peculiar experience, a person may even take his own life or kill someone else. We see this happening in the form of political murders, martyrs or lovers. Similarly, there have been instances of people dying in the sports stadium due to shock of defeat of their favourite team. Everyday, newspapers are full of such tragedies. This shows, how far the mind mechanism, has led our civilization and how much the memories influence a person.

This mental process of remembering the past, knowingly and unknowingly, keeps on happening forever because of the continuous movements of the tongue, vocal cord and mind. There are some natural memories as well. But those memories are not word or thought-bound. They do not float and repeat in the brain as the ego-based memories. It will be hard to distinguish the natural memories with the unnatural ones. How does a newly born child recognize its mother instinctively? The infants do not think. In fact, recent scientific experiments have shown that babies do not keep memories of most events. The scientists did a study on five, eight-months old babies, playing and repeating certain events continuously for four months. To their surprise, when the same events were repeated in front of the babies afterwards, they showed no signs of recognition. If, according to the experiment, the babies do not retain memories of any events, how do they recognize their mothers? How do they remember how to suckle on the breasts of their mothers? This is a glimpse of natural, thoughtless memories that the brains retains in order to sustain the human life.

If you put a newly born baby in the water, it will not drown. All the babies can swim. Where did this knowledge come from? How come the same baby forgets to swim and has to learn it again when grown up?

The evidence is in the nature as well. The birds know how to fly. The fish swim naturally and wild animals know how to hunt. Nobody is taught to do anything. The knowledge is instinctive and the memory primitive. The problem is that the natural memories and knowledge have been contaminated by the word and thought-based memories. The mind is reborn with most of the characteristic traits ingrained in the genes. Since the ego or “I” has gone into our cells, it has become a genetic trait as well. It works the same way as other genetic influences come into the babies from their parents; such as looks, behavior, and medical conditions, etcetera. In time to come, science will perhaps notice this phenomenon and be able to eradicate the ego from the human beings. It is our belief that, Nature has already identified this contamination and providing ways to eliminate it. Do you think that, the genetic knowledge and rapid advancement of genetic science is the work of a thinking mind? Well, think again. We are in the cycle of the evolution process. The evolution of human life has not stopped yet. We will, indeed, evolve into more advanced and natural species in the times to come. Our awareness now and attempts to free the brain from the ego or “I” or mind, will expedite this process. Ultimately, we are all going to be eternally happy, for we will exist forever. What we do, we do unto ourselves. Nature will continue to work through the human brain.

The Beginning

A child is always born with past memories. Since a newborn child cannot speak, the memories linger for some time and then gradually fade away with time. Actually, the reminiscence starts right in the womb, when the fetus is two months old. Those memories are, though, not instigated and thus natural. We may call it "Genetic Memory".

After the birth, the parents start teaching vocal sounds, lip movements and words to the child. This process of conditioning increases as the child goes to school and the teachers start feeding more information to the mind. The child gets accustomed to a certain language and starts building the vocabulary. We may call this "word-bound memory".

From childhood to adolescence, words start forming the thoughts and the thinking process gets activated. It gets more intense as more information and words are fed to the brain through the tongue. These words keep on getting stored as the child grows up and turn into memory. We may call this "word-fed memory".

This word-fed memory mechanism continues till the age of maturity and by this time, the person has already turned into a thinker. Experiences and memories of tens of years are stored, the thought process is activated and the mind starts working out logic, reasoning, arguments etc. The ego has been formed and "I" projected as the true identity of the person. As we have explained in earlier chapters, the thoughts, ideas and memories keep on bouncing from one level to another, influenced by past lives and present delusions. The desires start erupting and in the process of appeasement, all five senses and cells of the body get incited. Then, the cycle of illusion starts, creating more desires and making the mind work to satisfy them. The personality centers itself on "I" and the person gets drawn into the web of thoughts, desires and memories.

Watch the Tongue

The emphasis of the whole process is again on the movements of the tongue. Initially, we need to observe the movements and watch them at least 4-5 hours a day for one year. Later, it should be observed for atleast one day every week, one week in 3 months and one month in one-two years. During this period of silence, we shall be able to observe the movements of the tongue and draw our awareness inwardly. Observing the tongue movements will enable us see our thoughts and realize that they are nothing but a mirage. The realization will bring about the insight that the whole thinking process and mind, is merely a subjective, chemical and electro-magnetic process.

Only after such a realization does it become possible to transcend the mind or else the mind engages itself in egocentric thoughts of Aatma and Parmaatma. It is very important to note this point. The entire world knows the word-bound mental information about Aatma. This does not transform our lives, because it is just information on the superficial level, not experience. Every child of this world knows about Aatma, that is; knows only the word Aatma, but, in the path of self-realization, this information is the biggest obstacle for attaining self-realization. Self-realization is not a subject of information nor is it information (word-bound), but, it is rather the thoughtless state of our Brain.

As we reduce the information from our Brain in the form of memories and thoughts, the state of self-realization (thoughtlessness) starts surfacing on its own. That is the reason the sadhana of practicing Silence (Mauna) has to be undertaken for years. Because the information collected by us does not erase easily, it takes years to achieve thoughtlessness. It takes approximately 6 years for the imbibed habits of the vocal cord, tongue, DNA and brain to reduce and it takes approximately 6 years for the thoughtless state to stabilize in the DNA and Neurons, that too if one is sincere about it. Otherwise it could take approximately 2 to 3 tapas (1 tapa = 12 years) i.e. 24 to 36 years. It all depends on our decision to dissolving the “I”. Unless the mechanical process of words-thoughts-memories is reduced, talking about self-realization is only deceiving oneself. And this deception depends on the conditioning one receives in the form of sadhana, upasana, vipasna, dhayana, samadhi, chanting of mantras, business and profession, family etc. but you tend to get trapped in them.

Therefore, thoughtlessness can be measured as follows: the state of thoughtlessness attained in an hour without drifting into a state of trance, can be used as a scale for measuring thoughtlessness. And for achieving this state, controlling the movements of the tongue and observing periods of silence, is extremely necessary. Getting rid of one’s emotions and whims and fancies of the mind such as purity, impurity, divine, faith, superstition etc. is absolutely necessary. Only then can the brain become thoughtless, otherwise memories would keep creating newer desires.

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